Why do you write?
If you are a writer, you will be asked that question at least once in your life. I can’t count the number of times I’ve been asked it. And it seems like every time I hear the question, the answer changes. Oh, at the heart of it, the answer is the same—I write because I cannot NOT write. Writing is as much a part of my daily life as breathing. While the lack of writing may not bring the same physical problems that a lack of oxygen would bring, when I don’t write I do suffer a sort of emotional suffocation.
One reason I write, one that is playing heavy on my mind this morning, is because it’s a great escape from my life. Writing allows me to explore how my life could have been had I made different choices. Oh, I am not talking about the “little” choices, like what if I’d picked a different colored blouse or if I had picked something different for breakfast. I mean the bigger choices in life, like what if I had sat in a different seat in my 10th grade history class or what if I had gone to my senior prom with a group of friends instead of with the date I had. Those may not seem like big, life altering decisions to you, but to me they were.
The girl I sat next to in 10th grade history? She is still my best friend today.
The boy I went to my senior prom with? He and I have been married for 13 years.
If I’d made a different choice about either of those things, my life would be totally different today.
For the most, I am happy with my life. I can’t say completely happy, because there are things in my life that I am not happy with. Mostly, those things are health-related. I wonder sometimes how things would be different if I had made different choices.
This morning, I’d like a little escape from my life. My kids are off school this morning, and they are especially loud. I don’t know exactly why. Could be just because they are boys….
Today, I write because I need a break. I need to get away from the loudness, the madness that comes from having four (yes, four–they had a friend stay over last night; could that be part of the reason for the loudness??) boys at home today. Only I don’t know that I will get the quiet to be able to do that. After all, it’s taken me nearly two hours just to write this simple post.