Create in me a clean hear, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
It’s a new year. Resolutions are flying all over, with people taking this opportunity to try to better themselves.
I’ve made resolutions in the past. I’ve not been good at keeping them. Usually by the middle of January the good intentions of my resolution have flown out the window. I think the longest I’ve ever stuck with one is through my birthday, in mid-February.
That is why I have decided to not start of 2014 with a resolution. I want a better life. I want to be thinner, to make better choices, to be calmer, to be healthier, to be more content than I was in 2013. But resolving to be isn’t going to helping. Even taking action toward those things won’t change them. Not unless I understand the motivations behind them. So I have decided to start of this beautiful New Year with a prayer.
My prayer for this year comes right from the Bible, from the heart of King David. Funny how a man who lived thousands of years ago could write the words that so accurately describe my heart today…. The words are recorded in Psalm chapter 51.
Verse 3: “For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.” I am far from perfect. I make mistakes on a daily basis, mistakes I cannot hide from. Mistakes I no longer want to hide from. Lord, I know my anger and my attitudes are wrong. I see it, and I give it to You. Take this from me and turn it into something You can use for Your good.
Verse 10-12: “Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation and uphold me with thy free spirit.” Cleanse my heart, Lord. I want it to be filled only with love—love for You and for all of the wonderful things You have created. I know I have messed up, but please don’t give up on me. Don’t push me away. I ask Your forgiveness for the times I have pushed You away. Being with You is the sweetest joy, and I want more of that joy in my life. I can feel You here now, in this moment. I pray that I feel this sweetness and joy every moment, only a little stronger each day.
I love You, Lord. I love You so much that the thought of hurting You, of disappointing You saddens me. This New Year, 2014, Lord, I am dedicating it to YOU. Everything I do is for You, for Your glory.