Oh my goodness. Am I opening myself up with that title or what??
I spend a lot of time on Facebook. Please don’t ask just how much “a lot of time” is. I’d rather not admit to! Let’s just say if there was a 12-step program for Facebook addicts, it probably would not hurt me to join it!
Anyway, while I was on there last week, I saw an ad for college grants for moms. My big regret in life is that I have attended three different colleges and I still have no degree to show for it. So I clicked on the link. I found a school called Grand Canyon University that offers an English Literature program. It is 100% online. Looking further into the school, I learned that it is an accredited Christian college. That REALLY spiked my interested! I’ve been talking to an admissions counselor, which is only getting me more excited! He said that he can get most of my credits transferred, so I would likely be looking at only 2 years before graduation. He suggested that I fill out the FAFSA to see what kind of financial aid is available for me right now.
I talked it over with my husband yesterday. He thinks it is a good idea, but he worries that I might be taking on too much. I hate to say it, but he could be right. Writing, babysitting a 3-month-old, leading the Wesleyan Women at our church, and school. And don’t forget all of the “normal” Wife and Mommy stuff that I have to do (and Facebook!). He said that if I am in school, I might have to give up writing for a while.
Am I willing to do that?
He also asked me WHY I want to go back to school. That is a question I have been asking myself as well. If I am going just to finish school, is that really the right reason? Will this degree really benefit my writing career? In my mind it would. I keep thinking that editors and agents would take me more seriously if they see that I have an English degree. But I don’t really know that it would matter. The last thing I want to do is end up in the same place my husband has found himself in—with a college degree, in a job that doesn’t make use of that degree, and facing repayment of student loans.
I don’t know what to do here. I’ve been praying about it. I know that God will lead me where I want to be. No, that’s not right. He is going to lead me to where HE wants me to be.
One thing I am sure of is that He gave me the ability to write interesting stories. I know He wants me to write, that my ministry lies with my words. But honestly—will a degree change that? I mean, I am already writing a lot and working hard at promoting my work. He will give me success in His time. I’d like His time to match up to mine, but who doesn’t?? Having a degree isn’t going to push God to hurry up and show me how He wants to bless this career.