Thoughts to Ponder
What matters is not your outer appearance—the styling of your hair, the jewelry you wear, the cut of your clothes—but your inner disposition. I Peter 3:3-4, The Message
If you follow your dreams, the money will come. Follow the money, and you’ll lose your dreams. ~~Michael Collopy
I grew up hearing the old hymn I Surrender All. Youu know what song I mean, don’t you? “All to Jesus, I surrender, all to Him I freely give.” My dad used to have this cassette from a comedy troupe—I think tthey were The Whitehouse Players or something like that—and they did this skit based on that song. The congregation was singing the song when God spoke to several people individually about things in their lives that they might need to surrender to Him—like a car or a boyfriend. It was a very cute skit, and made it nearly impossible for me to sing the hymn without giggling.
Then about three years ago, I heard a song with the same name but different lyrics. It is sung by Clay Crosse and is one of the most touching songs I have heard in a long time. (The version below is the only one I was able to find on YouTube; sorry Clay isn’t singing it.) This song quickly became my prayer.
The thing is, I have become more like the people in the skit, hanging on to the things in my life that I love instead of fully giving myself over to God. Some days, I really feel like a failure about that.
What I have come to believe is that when it comes to my Christian walk, surrender is not a one-and-done thing. The devil is smart—he knows my weaknesses and he knows how to use them against me. I can’t allow him to win by thinking “I gave that to God once, and He gave it back to me.”
God didn’t give it back; I took it back.
Surrender has to be a conscious, daily decision. I have to remember to tell God, “Here, Take this. It’s Yours. I don’t want it. Give me the strength today to not take this back.” Sometimes I have to do it several times a day. There are days when I think God probably gets tired of all my give and take where some of my issues are concerned.
In the end, though, I know that what I want most in life is to be used by God. Every talent I have is a gift from Him, and it is wasted if I don’t use it for His glory.
Lord, if all I have is all that You desire, I surrender all.
I made the commitment to post every day this year. Today, I just don’t really know what to write. Not that I have nothing in mind—it’s just that I am not sure that my thoughts are thoughts I want to share right now! Does that make me selfish? Maybe. But I want to be sure that I understand all that I am processing before I share too much.
If you could keep me in prayers for some decisions that I will soon have to make, I’d greatly appreciate it. Also, keep my 3-year-old in your prayers, too. He is scheduled to have his tonsils and adenoids removed on Tuesday, and he isn’t so sure he wants to go!
I am beyond bored with the layout of this blog! Oh how I wish I knew enough to create my own “perfect” blog layout. Since I don’t, I am going to mess around with the available themes from WordPress. There has to be SOMETHING there I can use, right?